Thursday, December 31, 2009
Super Bowl Sunday.
The year 2009 has been busy with many life changing events for me. We all know we will have them but for some reason I had several at once. When I think of memories of 2009 there are a few that stand out in my mind. The first was the day at Church we celebrated Super Bowl Sunday. The Church was bursting at the seams with excitement for god and what he was doing in the church and in peoples lives. The service was beautiful, and there seemed to be so much energy that day. Games, chili cookoff, you name it. I remember crying as I sat beside my mom and Dad. Periodically looking over to them. Daddy was weak that morning but as he sat there he looked happy, content, and amazed at what was going on around him that day.
I knew he was getting weaker and on some Sunday's he wasnt able to make it. As I sat there i kept wondering how much more time I would have with him. Up until his illness I never had a Church realationship with my daddy. Growing up we attended Church here and there on special occasions without him, and not that often. The only memory I can remember being in a Church with him was at my wedding, and Funerals.
Daddy and Mom soon started attending the Church after i did. They really enjoyed coming and listening to Pastor Ray, listening to the word, and enjoying the music. Each Sunday I prayed that he would walk forward to be saved. He never did, and most Sunday's he would leave just as they did alter call. This Sunday was different. As the service was coming to an end, I felt the great need to take my daddy's hand and ask him if he wanted to go up front. Shaking his head yes my eyes filled with tears as I walked up with him. I remember a flood of past memories filled my mind as we were walking.
Daddy accepted God into his life that day, and as for me I was happy to be with him when he did, and now I had a sense of peace knowing he would forever be in God's arms and comforted.
At the end of the service the Church had giveaways, and were going to draw three names to participate. I couldnt believe it when they drew Dad's, then MINE. He was thrilled to go up and throw the football through the tire. He was so happy that day in so many ways. This is a memory I will be forever grateful for sharing with my Daddy. I have posted the video of that day. It will show his throw that day, and the helmet that he won. We were all winners that day.
This new year's eve 2010 will be more difficult for me then Christmas without my Dad. It seems strange but I almost feel by ending that last special year with him I am closing a door. I know the door to heaven will be open and we will be reunited one day.
I am looking forward to 2010 and what it will bring to my life. I have much to look forward to with my boy's and Charles in my life. I'm not one to make resolutions but prefer to make goals.
Goals can be changed and altered, to me resolutions sound more serious haha.
Some other highlights of this past year for me were......
Having my oldest son Tyler graduate from high School, leave home, and go to college in another state. How I survived it I dont know.
Learning a new way of charting at work with EPIC. Paperless charting was hard to loose, but we did it.
We also lost two special pets Skeeter and Winslow.
We also gained a new pet Louie.
We started our chicken coop.
I started wearing glasses..ugh
I met a new friend frm France
I learned different methods of painting interior walls.
This being said I will leave on a positive note saying I am eager and happy to enter 2010 at the place where I am, but also ready to move in different directions.
I knew he was getting weaker and on some Sunday's he wasnt able to make it. As I sat there i kept wondering how much more time I would have with him. Up until his illness I never had a Church realationship with my daddy. Growing up we attended Church here and there on special occasions without him, and not that often. The only memory I can remember being in a Church with him was at my wedding, and Funerals.
Daddy and Mom soon started attending the Church after i did. They really enjoyed coming and listening to Pastor Ray, listening to the word, and enjoying the music. Each Sunday I prayed that he would walk forward to be saved. He never did, and most Sunday's he would leave just as they did alter call. This Sunday was different. As the service was coming to an end, I felt the great need to take my daddy's hand and ask him if he wanted to go up front. Shaking his head yes my eyes filled with tears as I walked up with him. I remember a flood of past memories filled my mind as we were walking.
Daddy accepted God into his life that day, and as for me I was happy to be with him when he did, and now I had a sense of peace knowing he would forever be in God's arms and comforted.
At the end of the service the Church had giveaways, and were going to draw three names to participate. I couldnt believe it when they drew Dad's, then MINE. He was thrilled to go up and throw the football through the tire. He was so happy that day in so many ways. This is a memory I will be forever grateful for sharing with my Daddy. I have posted the video of that day. It will show his throw that day, and the helmet that he won. We were all winners that day.
This new year's eve 2010 will be more difficult for me then Christmas without my Dad. It seems strange but I almost feel by ending that last special year with him I am closing a door. I know the door to heaven will be open and we will be reunited one day.
I am looking forward to 2010 and what it will bring to my life. I have much to look forward to with my boy's and Charles in my life. I'm not one to make resolutions but prefer to make goals.
Goals can be changed and altered, to me resolutions sound more serious haha.
Some other highlights of this past year for me were......
Having my oldest son Tyler graduate from high School, leave home, and go to college in another state. How I survived it I dont know.
Learning a new way of charting at work with EPIC. Paperless charting was hard to loose, but we did it.
We also lost two special pets Skeeter and Winslow.
We also gained a new pet Louie.
We started our chicken coop.
I started wearing glasses..ugh
I met a new friend frm France
I learned different methods of painting interior walls.
This being said I will leave on a positive note saying I am eager and happy to enter 2010 at the place where I am, but also ready to move in different directions.
Sunday, December 27, 2009
The Many Meanings of Charles.................
Origin-
English.....Meaning Strong and Manly.
Other nicknames..Chuck, Charlie
-A Royal name, being borne by ten kings of France as well as by Kings of Hungary, Naples, and Sardinia. It was introduced to great Britain by Mary, Queen of Scots (1542-87) who bestowed it upon her son, Charles James (1566-1625).
It seems this name has followed me since birth in every way. First my Daddy's name was Charles. My sister was also named from him in a feminine version, Charlese. My brother's middle name is Charles, My youngest son is Logan Charles, and the special Man in my life is Charles.
Coincidence? I think not.
I love this name and its meaning. Strong and Manly, my Daddy was the strongest man I knew, always a hard worker, strong willed, strong in his beliefs. Everyone I have mentioned here holds the same definition. It does make you wonder if a persons personality and traits are influenced by the name they are given in some way? Probably not, but in our family it seems to hold true, or maybe from the strong influence of my Dad. He was definitely strong willed, with strong opinions.
I remember when I met Charles and told my parents his name, the reply from my dad was " I like him already, he has a good name". In fact my Dad liked his name so well he named his cat after himself. "Her" name was Charlie. Haha
Hopefully one of my boy's will continue to use this special name with their own children one day, how special that would be.
Maybe you have names that run from generation to generation, if so share them with me.
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
For some reason I have felt the need to start writing. Maybe as a way of therapy, Maybe for enjoyment, I'm really not sure. I am hoping through writing it will bring a sense of calm and healing for me.
I am a private person, tend to keep things to myself, and try to see the positive in every situation. Sometimes this really isn't the best way. I have pages and pages of words that need to be put to paper, but just am not sure where to start.
I am grieving. Grieving for my Daddy whom I lost to lung Cancer Nov. 15, 2009. This is new to me, I have never lost someone so close to my heart. I know there is a reason for everything that happens and that it is in God's control, but my mind constantly thinks and wonders why.
Why does so much pain and heartache have to come to our lives? Why can't there be a cure? The last few months I have had friends who have loved ones with cancer. I pray for them daily and the pain they go through to ease.
As we draw closer to Christmas my mind is filled with memories from past years and how things USED to be. It seems like yesterday I was hauling three little boys to Mom and Dads to open a ton of gifts with my brother, sister, and the rest of the family being there. I remember Daddy being so excited to open his gifts and see what the Grandkids got. This year is different, there is an empty place that will never be filled. Christmas is no longer at Mom and Dad's, new memories will be made, things will be different.
This year I am leaning on God's word, his plan, and his never ending love for us. I am confident that he will bring our family close and allow our hearts to heal and have peace. I wish everyone a Merry Christmas.
I am a private person, tend to keep things to myself, and try to see the positive in every situation. Sometimes this really isn't the best way. I have pages and pages of words that need to be put to paper, but just am not sure where to start.
I am grieving. Grieving for my Daddy whom I lost to lung Cancer Nov. 15, 2009. This is new to me, I have never lost someone so close to my heart. I know there is a reason for everything that happens and that it is in God's control, but my mind constantly thinks and wonders why.
Why does so much pain and heartache have to come to our lives? Why can't there be a cure? The last few months I have had friends who have loved ones with cancer. I pray for them daily and the pain they go through to ease.
As we draw closer to Christmas my mind is filled with memories from past years and how things USED to be. It seems like yesterday I was hauling three little boys to Mom and Dads to open a ton of gifts with my brother, sister, and the rest of the family being there. I remember Daddy being so excited to open his gifts and see what the Grandkids got. This year is different, there is an empty place that will never be filled. Christmas is no longer at Mom and Dad's, new memories will be made, things will be different.
This year I am leaning on God's word, his plan, and his never ending love for us. I am confident that he will bring our family close and allow our hearts to heal and have peace. I wish everyone a Merry Christmas.
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